"I FORGOT HOW TO DREAM "

 

"I FORGOT HOW TO DREAM "

(Sometimes, healing begins with the dreams we left behind.)

Forgetting something you've worked really hard for is painful. If it is over a guy then you have to know that he was not worth your progress.

I had a dream of becoming a perfect person. I wanted to study alot and do extracurricular activities, maintain blogs , record songs, dance and learn playing a keyboard.

I wanted to be happy and these made me happy.

Like writing blogs made me open up my feelings. It made me realise that if my box was filled it could also be emptied. No one would judge me . It would be like a friend always at my rescue. But I seem to have abandoned it.

Playing basketball made me feel like my energy was only reserved for it. Even though I was exhausted I would want to play more learn more and improve myself. I kept hoping that one day I would be really good at it . But seeing all that energy getting wasted like throwing wrappers into the dustbin made my heart ache.

Songs. Melodies. Tunes.

They are so addicting. Maybe God had created heaven on Earth through music. I lost myself listening to them for hours and it felt like maybe you don't need drugs to get high- just music is enough. Recording them with my voice gives me peace. Maybe flowing with water is not that tough if you are listening to music.

Maybe doing some funky moves in front of the mirror just so you can laugh is the best way to pass time.

According to me real happiness comes from you.

Have you ever realised how many times you have made yourself laugh?

You are the best comedian to yourself because you don't judge the way you are and you know everything about yourself.

Next time you look at the mirror make sure you laugh at yourself. Your true laugh comes when you laugh with yourself.

I had never once wanted to learn anything. But when I heard a guy playing a keyboard I had decided that I had to learn it.

I wanted to learn the Keyboard so I never felt bored of it. In fact I always find my fingers dancing to the tunes as if the music were coming from within them.

Everything I do , I always give my full dedication as if it is coming from within my soul.

I have learned that even though some obstacles might come I should never lose my passion and hobbies.

Now I ask myself  -

How could I leave a lovely life I have planned for myself?

I had decided that I would not hold back with the past and will move on to the present.

To improve myself and build a better future.

I cannot be PERFECT but I can be the best version of myself.

(A monologue)

- LANKA TEJASRI SAGAR